Just Another Day In The Life Of A Master - Aug. 29, 2007.

My goodness! What a self important sounding title for a newsletter. I wonder what Creator has in mind for this one. I guess we'll see won't we.

Vianna talks about the people coming into Thetahealing these days, especially the teachers are the awakened masters. Many of us are supposed to be high 5th plane beings coming back to help the their children on the 3rd plane graduate.

If I remember correctly, her definition of an awakened master is someone who is aware of their connection to the creator and the 7th plane energy and remembers how to use it. At first when I heard that definition it felt a little anti-climatic to me. I being the ego based person that I am in my own special way kindof wanted to be recognised as or associated with a group of people that, because of whatever ascendedness I may possess was therefore more special or better than my fellow human beings. After all, weren't the rest of them just "Muggles" and not worthy of the Hogwart's enrollment that I was. Vianna's definition seemed to lack the fanfare, fireworks and dancing girls that some part of me felt i needed to be properly acknowledged. ...... OH BROTHER!! Get over yourself Steve.

What does it really mean to be human whether we're a so called awakened master or not? Well to me so far it means that we are constantly having to look at ourselves and the way we seem to find endlessly creative ways to forget that we're at one with the creator of all that is and we are part of the all that is. We are insistent on being small and insignificant yet at the same time we seem to need to be seen as smarter, sexier and more powerful and more spiritual than every other person that comes within 3 feet of us. Either that or we fight to be the most pathetic of all of our friends. We often seem to be oblivious to how oxy-moronic we can really be with these issues. The more we identify with our little stories and how we see ourselves and how we think we want others to see us the less grand we really become.

In an interview Dustin Hoffman gave, he told the story of when he asked Sir Laurence Olivier why "we actors" do what we do and put ourselves through what we put ourselves. He said Olivier leaned over the table, put his face very close to Hoffmans and in this almost hysterically insistent voice repeated over and over again the phrase, "look at meeee look at meee look at meeee look at meeeeeeeee"

I realized when I heard that story that most of my life I have done virtually the same thing. Certainly i have done it in a variety of ways from the first Thetahealing Basic class i took 4 years ago. On one hand within the first hour of the seminar i realized and deeply felt I was home. I've always, at some level or another "got it" that we can connect to creator or the divine or the unified field and change our experience of reality through that energy. At the same time I'm constantly finding various embarrasing belief systems that are the last thing one would think an Awakened Master would have in their operating system of their life.

What's the point here. Maybe you really are an awakened master. It might be fun to test that as a part of your identity. If you really are an Awakened Master my suggestion to you is this. GET OVER YOURSELF DUDE!!!!!!! YOU'RE NOT THAT SPECIAL!!!! In my humble opinion everyone on this planet is a spectacular perfect being of light and just as capable as you or me to do things that the rest of the world sees as miracles. When you or me or Vianna or Jesus or Buddha or whoever performs these healings etc, we sometimes forget it's really the creator doing it. Creator is the healer, we're just the witness. As Homer Simpson would say "D'oh!!"

I've met some amazing Thetahealing practitioners and instructors who help alot of people. Some of them, due to whatever unresolved issues and unaddressed limiting belief systems they still have, can be petty egotistical manipulative meanspirited self-important ridculous temper tantrum throwing immature babies. Gee Steve, don't hold back, let us know what you really think. Just because their earth plane personalities are that way doesn't mean they are not "Awakened Masters" There can be a biiiiig difference between spiritual mastery and being a decent human being.

Start doing work with yourself around Self Honesty. Where are the places you see yourself as better than or above someone else? Who are the people that you find yourself judging and finger pointing with? Who are the people you see as beneath you? Where are the places in your life where you can't seem to muster up some commpassion for others or yourself? When do you catch yourself thinking that you're all that and a bag o' chips too? Don't get me wrong, there's nothing wrong with being proud of yourself. Just watch how it feels and ask creator to show you the limiting beliefs around those moments. Take alook at the qualities of the people that piss you off the most and you are the most judgemental over and muscle test yourself to see if you have those qualities. Get a friend you trust to do that for you because you may not be able to be honest with yourself sometimes around these issues.

The bottom line here is just because you may be an "Awakened Master" doesn't mean you're not an Asshole. That, my friends, will keep you from the happiness you deserve.

Love Steve

We all try so hard, don't we. It seem especially true of people that are working to improve themselves or to live a more spiritual life. We just can't seem to get it right or no matter how hard we work on ourselves it never ends. There's always something more. Won't we EVER be fixed? How much more can there be? I thought I resolved that issue. I thought I'd gotten to the bottom of this issue. How much more innerwork do I have to do on myself before I start living the life I really want? Why doesn't my eyesight get better? When will my soulmate finally show up? Why isn't Creator answering my prayers?

I've been clearing my stuff for a decade and it feels like nothing has changed. What the hell else do I have to do Creator? Am I that damaged that nothing will work? I must be paying off some pretty horrible Karma to keep having to deal with all this. I must be a really bad person. I'm a failure at all this. Creator must be really mad at me. etc etc etc etc etc etc.

We could go on and on. What is it that you think you're doing wrong? Creator says you're doing nothing wrong. Yes yes, I can hear you swearing at me through your computer. I don't blame you. We all can get very frustrated sometimes. Think back to before you found this stuff called Thetahealing. What were you like? How did you deal with problems or conflict. Do you remember having thoughts like, "this is just the way it is. I might as well get used to it." or "I guess I'm really hopeless." Do you remember feeling like everything around you seemed to be conspiring against you? Why did you feel that way?

Why did you beat yourself up for screwing it up for the 4389th time. Was it because you thought you'd learned that lesson and you still reacted the same way to the situation as the first 4388 times? It's not your fault. No I'm not trying to absolve you from blame or tell you there are no consequences. There are consequences. There are consequences for every thought you have and every knee jerk reaction you ever make.

You are responsible for every experience you ever had BUT, it's not your fault.

IMHO the truest and highest of all the philosophies and religions and spiritual practices tell us the same fundamental truth. You are perfect exactly as you are. There's nothing about your truest deepest self that needs to be fixed. There's nothing about you that is broken. You are infinitely perfect. STEVE YOU'VE HAD ONE TOO MANY OF THOSE STARBUCKS COFFEE WITH TOO MUCH CHOCOLATE POWDER AND CREAM. YOU'VE CRACKED!!! No actually I haven't. God doesn't make mistakes and that includes when he made you. BUT YOU DON'T KNOW THE THINGS I'VE DONE AND SAID AND THOUGHT. Maybe not but I don't really care what you've done or said or thought. At the end of the day that's not what counts. You are not separate from Creator, no matter how hard you try to prove it to your self and to the world. You can't make a mistake, period. What you do is assign meaning to things in ways you don't always understand.

Let's look at the nature of matter from a particle physics and quantum physics point of view. (apologies to Dr. Nat and the other scientists
reading this ahead of time for what ever mistakes i make when I give what ever ideas that come forth in this next part. (see, I have more work to do on this subject. i'm beating myself up even before i actually commit a grievous error that I'm not even sure I'm actually going to make.)) Long story short, the deeper Science goes into
matter the less of it there is. The atomic structure of stuff comes down to neutrons, protons and electrons and what appears to be a relatively large amount of empty space. Those parts, when we look at them really closely, it has been discovered are really just little clumps of vibrations and not actually stuff. The idea that anything is actually solid it seems is an illusion. In a way, at least at the
physical level nothing is really there. Why would that be? HMMM,
what a good question.

In a way when you physically hurt someone you're not actually hurting them. Yes the person is experiencing pain and maybe they bleed etc. If you look at it at the deeper level, all the little clumps of
vibrations that make up whatever part of the other person you hurt are still just little clumps of vibrations. The idea that you actually hurt someone is relative. how could you have hurt the other person if at the quantum/particle physics level all the clumps of vibrations
are still clumps of vibrations?

This is not a rationalization to go around hurting people because "it never really happened" at the quantum level of little clumps of vibrations. That of course would be stupid. What is the fundamenal
principle of thetahealing? As I vaguely understand it We all are, at one level or another, creating ourr own reality. We are infinite co-creators with God in every aspect of our lives. This whole take on quantum physics etc in my mind is just the mechanism that Creator has
given us to play with the ideas of separation from creator without consequenses at the higher spiritual levels while still giving us what we percieve as consequenses at the level of so called physical reality.

Let's go back to when you punched out your obnoxious brother-in -law, or stole money, or got drunk, ran a red light and crashed into that car killing those two little girls and you walked away without a scratch. On the level of this earth plane those events are at best ridiculous and at worst unforgivable and horrifying. However, because of all this particle and quantum physics stuff there is scientific intellectual room for the beginnings of the possibility that everything may not be as it seems at first glance. Without taking away from what we percieve as unacceptable behaviour at various levels, the finality of what has gone on in our lives and the
mistakes we have made is in doubt.

Yes there are consequenses to our actions and thoughts in the world but the meaning we give them is up to us. What about the story of the murderer of a boy and the father of that same boy coming together to help save other boys from the same violence that the original boy
experienced. Is the act that the murderer commited still unforgivable. Maybe, maybe not. It depends on what meaning you assign to the act and the following situations that came from that hienous act.

There was one guy i worked on a few months ago that had the belief that you had to screw people in business to get ahead. After about 10 minutes of digging we found that his subconscious believed, essentially, doing that would help keep communism away which in turn
would bring far far more suffering to humanity than even the worst form of capitalism ever could. Whether you agree with hm or not is not important. HE beleived that. Within his own jumbled beleif systems he was doing the very best he know how to do for the greater good even if he had to screw someone in business to do it.

What is it that you are beating yourself up over? What is it about yourself and the way you survive this earthly plane that makes you feel a fool, or stupid or hopeless or defective or inherently flawed at the deepest levels? What is it that makes you feel as if the dark
side of you is just waiting for you to slip up and take over and the death and destruction will then begin?

What's the worst thing that would happen if you didn't feel that way about yourself and your past actions? Who was the first person that convinced you of these things? Why did you feel you had no choice but to accept those judgements upon yourself? What is it within yourself
that you are willing to look at to find the beliefs that are the ones that convince you of your separateness from god? Remember they are just beliefs and when we ask creator to change them for us he does, no questions asked. Why does he do that? Because Whatever you think
you've done it's just a belief. Whatever meaning you've assigned to the experiences in your life, they're just beliefs. They all can be changed in the twinkling of an eye. (Faster actually!)

Give yourself a break. Let go of beating yourself up for just a little while so you can see the meaning you've assigned to yourself and the things in your life you've experienced. Change them if you want so you can have a different experience of life and help more people and have, more and more the conscious experience of oneness with and lack of separateness from the Creator of all that is who loves you in ways we can't even begin to imagine.

LOVE STEVE

SEEING YOURSELF THROUGH THE EYES OF ANOTHER. OCTOBER 20, 2007